I’ve been waiting a very long time for this to happen. It’s been at least 4 years since I began to build my own website. What I didn’t realize or want to admit is that I cannot be good at all things, even though I strive to.
Admitting that I needed help and then actually asking for it, is something that nagged at me, constantly. Not this time though; not now.
I do not enjoy working on computer issues. There. I said it. Luckily, I have tech support at home, which is a great advantage. This time, when I finally yielded to asking for help, the wonderful fellow mosaic artist and artist-website-builder, Pam Givens, came to my rescue. More regarding building an artist website on another day… but suffice to say, I am so pleased and grateful for her knowledge, patience, encouragement and understanding.
Something else that is important to me and that I focus on, is balance in my life and flow to my work as an artist. Coincidentally, balance and flow are two tenets of yoga as well. I’ve taken many yoga classes over the past several years, but I only began to “practice” yoga a little over a year ago. I’ve learned so much during this time, and now strive to incorporate those tenets into my life ‘away from the mat’ and in my artwork.
Flowing through a practice involves breathing, focus, strength, determination and effort. It’s hard, but it’s something that brings meaning for me and I realize that flow is also something that I’ve worked towards in mosaic art, probably since the first piece of glass that I stuck to a substrate. I love flowing lines. Mosaic art is often about the line and how it flows into an image that creates a feeling or a mood. It sort of dawned on me this past year how yoga and mosaic have an irreplaceable connection in my life. It was an “aha” moment when it finally made sense, and from there, I began to find my own voice in this medium.
Balance is something I will always struggle with. I’m sort of an ‘all-in’ kind of person, but yoga has taught me that balance is ongoing and changes from day to day, quite possibly from minute to minute. Let’s face it, I suck at tree pose, but when I lose my balance, I need to laugh and bring that foot right back up on my standing leg. And try again. That’s how balance works in life – keep examining what’s important and strive to do better, to be better.
The subject of my most recent art project is balance and flow. Sometimes a strong gust of wind or even a gentle breeze can knock one off course. Sometimes the imbalance comes from something deeper within, conditions at work, friends, health.
Those struggles are real, but finding your way back to stillness is always possible, even though it’s challenging at times. I am getting better at balance, but I do remind myself daily that it is not static, that balance is always changing and when I achieve a good tree pose, balance is working and that makes me happy.